{"id":1915,"date":"2017-06-26T22:47:40","date_gmt":"2017-06-26T17:02:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/?p=1915"},"modified":"2017-06-27T21:39:13","modified_gmt":"2017-06-27T15:54:13","slug":"leave-me-alone","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/2017\/06\/26\/leave-me-alone\/","title":{"rendered":"Leave me alone"},"content":{"rendered":"<span class=\"rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\">&lt; 1<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minute<\/span><\/span><h2 style=\"text-align: center;\">Yaadein Yaad Aati Hai &#8211; Yaadein<\/h2>\n<p><iframe width=\"560\" height=\"315\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/-uTfufg8P24?ecver=1\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>I have been through too much a dust, too many storms, too many tragedies, so much pain, and sorrow, too many disgusted looks and terrifying memories.<\/p>\n<p>I went through too many betrayals, too much a trash to even recognize for once, the one I use to be.<\/p>\n<p><strong>So, please! Leave me alone. Let me be.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>My eyes were open as clocks rotated around. I kept staring at the dull light, listening to the sound of a broken heart once the heart full of life.<\/p>\n<blockquote><p><strong>I am tired. I am burnt. I am rusted. I am exasperated. I am irritated. I am incensed. I am infuriated. I am everything but me<\/strong>.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>I feel like an elephant, shrunk and forced inside the body of as tiny as an ant who I once crushed like nothing she was. But I feel her pain now. I feel the loss of loss.<\/p>\n<p>I feel the swelling of delighted, mocking Grief, warm and happy inside of me, scratching all soft surfaces as he forces himself deeper and deeper on me, in me. <strong>Depression<\/strong> he introduces himself &#8212; he weighs whales, shakes me to the below, teases me, demands my submission, croons his victory song over the wrecked I am, I be.<\/p>\n<p><strong>So, please! Let me grieve. Let me heal.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center; background: #828583; font-size: 4.1rem; color: white;\"><strong>,.. I don&#8217;t mind being a sad poem for someone with a <span style=\"color: #a60c26;\">floral<\/span> <span style=\"color: #475808;\">soul.<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p><span class=\"rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\">&lt; 1<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minute<\/span><\/span> Yaadein Yaad Aati Hai &#8211; Yaadein I have been through too much a dust, too many storms, too many tragedies, so much pain, and sorrow,&#8230;<\/p>\n<div class=\"more-link-wrapper\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/2017\/06\/26\/leave-me-alone\/\">Continue Reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Leave me alone<\/span><\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1915"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1915"}],"version-history":[{"count":15,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1915\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1931,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1915\/revisions\/1931"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1915"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1915"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1915"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}