{"id":5750,"date":"2020-01-16T21:13:59","date_gmt":"2020-01-16T15:28:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/?p=5750"},"modified":"2020-01-31T15:02:43","modified_gmt":"2020-01-31T09:17:43","slug":"these-calendar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/2020\/01\/16\/these-calendar\/","title":{"rendered":"These Calendar"},"content":{"rendered":"<span class=\"rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\">3<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minutes<\/span><\/span>\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed-youtube aligncenter wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe title=\"Kowen - To Be Forgotten\" width=\"500\" height=\"281\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/gIlpS4l_JRY?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><figcaption>Kowen &#8211; To Be Forgotten<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>You will realize at some point in time that the most awful fucks anyone can give it to you is but yourself. In other words, <strong>in real life, no body will give you more real fucks to you than you yourself will<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1920\" height=\"2560\" src=\"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/IMG_20200115_110138-1-scaled.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-5760\"\/><figcaption>Poush &#8211; 2076 (Seinfelding)<\/figcaption><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-color has-background has-text-align-center has-larger-font-size has-very-light-gray-color has-vivid-cyan-blue-background-color\"><strong>Pain<\/strong>ful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-color has-text-align-center has-larger-font-size has-vivid-cyan-blue-color\">but <strong>Beauti<\/strong>ful.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I recall, perhaps the only and the most <strong>depress<\/strong>ing phase of life was during my high school days. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:50px\" class=\"has-text-color has-text-align-center has-cyan-bluish-gray-color\"><strong>+2<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Family was struggling through finances. Didn&#8217;t like the school I enrolled in. Didn&#8217;t have any friends. Didn&#8217;t find one. Didn&#8217;t feel like making one! No goals. No role models. Instead, there were no shortages of bullies. Those dumb <strong>f-#ers<\/strong>. I remember, they&#8217;d call me names, make fun of me in-front of the entire class, which in all sincerity had me feel like a<strong> loser<\/strong> &#8212; with added seasoning of an absolute disgrace over my life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>At the same time, I had a crush on a girl who wouldn&#8217;t give a flying fuck. [Haha..]. Can&#8217;t blame her. Plus, was trying to make sense of life and all the bullshits that i had to endure day-in and day-out with no sign of help from  anywhere or anyone else. Was teaching bunch of raw slates, less, because i wanted to but more just so that I can pay for my tuition. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>What a fuckingly fuck of a messy those times were when-in I had totally forgotten to feel happy or worst &#8212; even to put up a smiling face. [Haha..] All credits to my low self-esteem and persistently <strong>anal<\/strong>-ized self-confidence.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p style=\"font-size:58px\" class=\"has-text-color has-background has-text-align-center has-very-light-gray-color has-vivid-red-background-color\">Fu<strong>&gt;<\/strong>k! <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Despite, it was at that point in time, I&#8217;d found refuge in books. Be it exercise books or the ones from self-help fraternity. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It was then, I&#8217;d embraced my own flavor of introverted-ness. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It was then I paid attention to the people I wouldn&#8217;t want to waste a fuck for.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It was around that time Musicpervs was born. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>More or so, It was because of my &#8216;<strong>solitude<\/strong>&#8216; friend, I had figured out that s<strong>elf-growth<\/strong> is the only way forward and that I&#8217;m the only person responsible for my shits!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Heavy <strong>shit<\/strong> ae&#8217;. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And, that&#8217;s why these calendar habits still runs in my blood, through and through. Painful. <strong>But Beautiful!<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\"><em>(And, just so if you&#8217;re curious, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=DqbvsDt_D3o\">Jerry Seinfeld<\/a> is our guy who made this <a href=\"https:\/\/nickwignall.com\/seinfeld-strategy\/\">shit<\/a> nuclear.)<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Lastly, around these same waters, I&#8217;d like to leave you with some of the wildly sexy and utterly powerful insights which I&#8217;ve enjoyed a-fucking-lot, from few of my dead friends :-<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-dots\"\/>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1024\" height=\"1024\" src=\"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/marcus-1024x1024.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-5752\" srcset=\"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/marcus-1024x1024.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/marcus-300x300.jpg 300w, http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/marcus-150x150.jpg 150w, http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/marcus-768x768.jpg 768w, http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/marcus.jpg 1080w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-dots\"\/>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\"><figure class=\"aligncenter size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"480\" height=\"480\" src=\"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/2021ffc0cab4887106a1582c3d2db9e4.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-5754\" srcset=\"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/2021ffc0cab4887106a1582c3d2db9e4.png 480w, http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/2021ffc0cab4887106a1582c3d2db9e4-300x300.png 300w, http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/2021ffc0cab4887106a1582c3d2db9e4-150x150.png 150w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 480px) 100vw, 480px\" \/><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-dots\"\/>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" width=\"1024\" height=\"642\" src=\"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/Seneca-Quotes-5-1024x642.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-5765\" srcset=\"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/Seneca-Quotes-5-1024x642.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/Seneca-Quotes-5-300x188.jpg 300w, http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/Seneca-Quotes-5-768x482.jpg 768w, http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/Seneca-Quotes-5-1536x963.jpg 1536w, http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/01\/Seneca-Quotes-5.jpg 2000w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Heartfelt thanks for your time!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p><span class=\"rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\">3<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minutes<\/span><\/span> You will realize at some point in time that the most awful fucks anyone can give it to you is but yourself. 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