{"id":6348,"date":"2020-10-01T22:23:47","date_gmt":"2020-10-01T16:38:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/?p=6348"},"modified":"2020-10-01T22:29:31","modified_gmt":"2020-10-01T16:44:31","slug":"last-thursday","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/2020\/10\/01\/last-thursday\/","title":{"rendered":"Last Thursday."},"content":{"rendered":"<span class=\"rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\">2<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minutes<\/span><\/span>\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote\"><p>Everything is in your heart and in your hands.<\/p><p><strong>What is the world&#8217;s most expensive bed? The hospital bed.<\/strong><\/p><p>You, if you have money, you can hire someone to drive your car, but you cannot hire someone to take your illness that is killing you.<\/p><p>Material things lost can be found. But one thing you can never find when you lose: life.<\/p><p>Whatever stage of life where we are right now, at the end we will have to face the day when the curtain falls.<\/p><p><strong>Please treasure your family love, love for your spouse, love for your friends&#8230;<\/strong><\/p><cite><sup>Steve Jobs<\/sup><\/cite><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed-youtube alignwide wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe title=\"Bharat Chauhan - Ghar\" width=\"500\" height=\"281\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/ZE4RdcWxbnE?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><figcaption><sup>Bharat Chauhan &#8211; Ghar<\/sup><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>Last Thursday, I felt all the weight of the world on my shoulder. Again, I watched flames eat up flesh minutes by minutes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Last Thursday, <strong>I couldn&#8217;t write.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Last Thursday, on September 24, 2020, 2:35PM; My grandmother passed away right in front of my eyes as I tried fixing her bed positioning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-dots\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p>I was with her as she was recovering gracefully; Once again, playful, smiling, upbeat and eating; Once again, trying her best to be herself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>But then &#8212;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We saw her heartbeat go up to 240-253 from 90-100, as the monitor beeped red and worried.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We saw her tearful, swollen, painful eyeballs; saw every parts of the body swollen with water.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I&#8217;d feed her every meal (<em>breakfast, lunch, brunch, dinner<\/em>, &#8230; <em>water<\/em>), every day, until the day she couldn&#8217;t eat or drink anymore.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Laughed with her, cried helpless tears without anybody noticing, slept-a-little but in chilling, unfamiliar fear; googled every shit possible, in hopes that I can bring her back to her normal self.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Honest to god (<em>if there&#8217;s one<\/em>), It&#8217;s inexplicably painful to be remembering her finest and the final days with me, with us.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-dots\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p>Because, I&#8217;ve seen her failing heartbeats over a monitor from 135 to 115 to 65 to 51 to 0. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Because, I held her cold, swollen, white hands and watched her oxygen saturation(SpO<sub>2<\/sub>) drop from 96 to 81 to 75 to 0.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Because, I saw her blood pressure get radically low despite continuous Dobutamine IV administration.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Because, I saw her lungs RPM go <em>nil<\/em> from 24 and 18 and 8.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I<strong> know how fortunately vulnerable we human ar<\/strong>e &#8212; than we&#8217;d ever know.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-dots\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p>I vividly remember, one fine day, we walked her to the hospital on an ambulance. <em>I will never forget her swollen, tired, trying feet.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A week after, I was trying to open her mouth by pressing her tongue downward just so that she can breathe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Reebhusha sobbing her heart out would rub her hands as we were losing her quickly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>In tears, we had tried everything we could&#8217;ve. She did too.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>We failed!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Failed!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-dots\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p>However, there&#8217;s a second part to this story.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-dots\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p>P.S. Ours was not merely a grandparent-grandson relationship.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Ours is a relationship of a lifetime. <br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><strong>Eme&#8217;<\/strong> &#8230; &#8230;<strong> I wish I wasn&#8217;t writing this.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-larger-font-size\"><strong>Sorry!<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p><span class=\"rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\">2<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minutes<\/span><\/span> Everything is in your heart and in your hands. What is the world&#8217;s most expensive bed? The hospital bed. 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