{"id":6401,"date":"2020-11-19T19:57:04","date_gmt":"2020-11-19T14:12:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/?p=6401"},"modified":"2020-11-19T19:59:07","modified_gmt":"2020-11-19T14:14:07","slug":"i-cry","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/2020\/11\/19\/i-cry\/","title":{"rendered":"I cry"},"content":{"rendered":"<span class=\"rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\">&lt; 1<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minute<\/span><\/span>\n<blockquote class=\"wp-block-quote is-style-large\"><p>I tried to hold it in, but tears tear up anyway. I let it be.<\/p><p>~Musicpervs<\/p><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed-youtube alignwide wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<iframe title=\"Nicholas Yee - Time (Inception)\" width=\"500\" height=\"281\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/g2GbpXqL5P8?feature=oembed\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe>\n<\/div><figcaption><sup>Nicholas Yee &#8211; Time (Inception)<\/sup><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>It&#8217;s better I confess and move on.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I cry almost, &#8230; almost every other night despite this perfect &#8216;all is well&#8217; cosmetic I put on.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Solitude. Loneliness. I swing in-between. Killingly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>&#8216;Could haves&#8217; clutters up my headspace. Blindfolds me. Squeezes me on my neck and hammers nail right through my literal heart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator is-style-dots\"\/>\n\n\n\n<p>Tears tear up. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And, I let it sway me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>And, I wonder after a while,&#8230; matter of fact, I wonder after <strong>every whiles<\/strong> that perhaps this is called &#8216;<em>cleansing memories<\/em>&#8216; of my grandmother&#8217;s final days.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Thence.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Understanding life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Contemplating death.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Embracing fragility.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Steadily healing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Namaste.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p><span class=\"rt-reading-time\" style=\"display: block;\"><span class=\"rt-label rt-prefix\">Reading Time: <\/span> <span class=\"rt-time\">&lt; 1<\/span> <span class=\"rt-label rt-postfix\">minute<\/span><\/span> I tried to hold it in, but tears tear up anyway. I let it be. ~Musicpervs It&#8217;s better I confess and move on. I cry&#8230;<\/p>\n<div class=\"more-link-wrapper\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/2020\/11\/19\/i-cry\/\">Continue Reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">I cry<\/span><\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[82,89],"tags":[115,116,23],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6401"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6401"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6401\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6403,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6401\/revisions\/6403"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6401"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6401"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/bijays.com.np\/musicpervs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6401"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}